April 26, 2026 • 5000+ Words Deep Raw Story
Failures, Shani, and One-Sided Love.
Honestly, my life has been a series of "Trial and Errors." For 16 years, I tried to build my empire, but kismat always had other plans.
The Wednesday Realization
Look, it was a very cold Wednesday afternoon in December 2024. I was sitting inside my computer training center that I owned in partnership. Honestly, it was a hard day. I looked at the accounts and realized we weren't making enough *paisa* to even pay the rent properly. After 4 years of hard work, I had to close the center. That was the moment I realized that life doesn't care about your talent if you don't have patience and timing. Phir se wahi zero par aane ka darr... it was brutal.
1. The Indore Dream (2010-2018)
Honestly, after 12th class, I was obsessed with the idea of a "SaaS" (Software as a Service). But here's the thing—I didn't know how to code. I went to Indore and joined Virtual Voyage Institute to learn graphic design and internet basics. I started building websites like Omegle, thinking I would become the next big thing. But scaling those sites needed money, and I had zero. I spent nights editing code on Google Blogger, learning how to tweak templates through self-effort. But none of my blogs got Adsense approval. 2010 to 2018 was just me wasting time and energy because I lacked consistency.
2. The Shani Sadesati Phase
Look, while I was in Indore, I was also going through 'Shani ki Sadesati'. Honestly, I am not a very religious person, but nothing was working. Every project I started, I would quit in a few days because results were not visible. When my family stopped sending me money, I had no choice but to leave Indore and come back home. It was the most humiliating feeling. Coming back as a "failure" to your hometown is a special kind of pain.
The Heartbreak
Parallelly, my heart was breaking. I loved a girl from my school days. Honestly, it was always one-sided. I used to chat with her on Facebook for hours between my work. One day, her father actually came to my house with a rishta, but my father rejected it. After that, everything became worse. She got a government job and moved to Mumbai. I came back to Patan, Jabalpur, and fell into a deep trauma. Literally, heart mein pain hota tha and aakhon ke samne andhera. I faced every brutal phase of a breakup alone.
3. The YouTube Biography Struggle
Thak haarkar, I started a YouTube biography channel. Look, it was a lot of hard work. First, choose a popular personality, then research their whole life on Google, then write a long script, then record the audio. Honestly, recording audio was the biggest jhanjhat. Then making whiteboard animations, editing in Premiere Pro, and creating thumbnails. It took a whole day for one video. And the result? Only 10 or 20 views. I did this for one full year. Consistency slowly died, and when Covid hit, I stopped making videos altogether.
4. The CSC Dukan and The Job
Here's the thing: after sitting empty for some time, I opened a small online service *dukan* (Pan card, Aadhar card, etc.). It worked for 2 years, but honestly, I got bored. Then I took a job in a computer center for only ₹6,000. I worked there for 4 years, even became a partner, but savings were zero. Finaly, in December 2024, we had to close that too. Life was looking like a total failure.
One Negative Honest Point
Look, honestly, building Vāṇī AI now is my last hope. But I will be honest—sometimes I feel our tool needs a "Bulk Upload" feature for scripts. Right now, doing it one by one for a long audiobook is a bit of a struggle. I hope we can fix this soon because as a creator, I know time is everything.
5. 2026: The Operator Job & The New Path
Today, in 2026, I work as a computer operator in a college for ₹12,000. It's a simple job, but my mind is still in the SaaS world. I have learned one big thing: no matter how much talent you have, if you don't have patience and consistency, destiny will squeeze you. I don't know where this Vāṇī AI journey will take me, but I wanted to tell my struggle story to everyone who feels like they are failing. You are not alone.
6. Why Consistency is The King but...
Business is not about one viral video or one great website. Honestly, it is about showing up every day even when there are zero views or zero *paisa*. My pichle anubhav (past experiences) have taught me to be patient. Luck is just timing, but consistency is the engine. I am building again, not for the fame, but for the dream that started in Indore in 2010. The path is long, and I am still a student of life but...